Today I woke up and realizeed that the place where you grew up will alwayz be close to your heart- but when you go back there you can only take it in small doses. After 10 years of being gone it is even more special and holds even more humor than before you left. From your best friend that got lost to the fast life to the guy who is a total loser but in love with you still-you know the one that makes you glad you left in the first place. Suddenly one day while your walking down the road and a breeze goes through your hair-and you feel that same old magick that was always in the air in your childhood. Then you think if only I could go back and do this and what was i thinking. For just one second you say boy im glad i got away-but really none of us ever get away-we always come back. We come back with secrets and with baggage-and home is the one    place that is always their to welcome us with open arms. It is part of our fate and destiny that the great spirit has weaved for us. They say if a tree has no root it has no life-so if a man has no past then he has no future. So if your back home dont hate it just sit back and enjoy it and see what fate has in store for you.

Whatz so special about ABORTION??? 

Well I tell you what-for the young girl who ws raped her whole life by her drunk step-fatherz and got pregnant but #1-doesn't want her mental case of a mother to find out cause her mom only lives for the love of the drunk alcaholic step-father=it would literally kill the girls mother#2-cause stuff like that is enough to cause psychosis in any woman during pregnancy=the girl really beleives the child in her is evil becausethe wy it was created..#3-most of all because the girl has nothing in this world,shez and her family(her mother)are dirt poor,and most of all it is her body and she has the right to choose by the law in this country for now at least. However why deny this girl or any girl this privelegde for that matter.Now I know most of you who read my blog this is a bit of a change and maybe a bit of a bummer but just ber with me. To me all women should have the right to choose. Really even if  ABORTION is illegal most women will still turn to things such as wives tale treatments and back alley abortions which can and usually leave them with bad infections and cause dealth. And yes it is so true that sumtimes women and girls have abortions for no other resons at all except that they can- but youmust remember that these people will answer to a higher power one day. That it is not our place as humans to judge them or make the desicion for them. Just if a vote comes down to it I ask you to just please remember that young girl=that girl tht in her mind itz really the only real wayand the best solution to her personal problem. Then try to remember that if wut these people are doing by having an ABORTION is wrong then just trust that god, or jesus, or yahweh, or the great spirit,or whoever will hndle it eventully and just remember that even though itz illegal it will still happen. Infact studies show that when  women go for legal abortions and go through the conseling,ultrsounds, and ect. associted with getting a legal abortion it causes a large percentage of women to change their minds-so maybe abortion beinglegal is a sort of blessing in deguise=because afterall with back alley abortions and such-as with any black market-money is exchanged and a service is rendered-there is no one there to change your mind=cause money is money.TILL NEXTTIME PEOPLE

How lucky we are to be alive

Just three days ago i was in the emergency room and was faced with my own mortality-however it wasnt the first time in my life that I was faced with this. Although this time I was so happy to take a fresh breath of air and be alive. Sometimes-just like many people-I beleive that i can live forever;and who knows except for the great spirit this may or may not be true. Most people today strictly rely on what is told to us by the main stream media,doctors,preachers,and ect. Well guess wut people it is time to think outside the box-beleive wuts in your heart not wut everyone tells you-I mean really,  where has all the magic in the world gone; itz still there sumwhere waiting in the wings to come back out. Because for real we possibly can literally live forever- at least some of us can- and sum of us will. Now of course we can all die and most of us will die-cause if you are immortal you wont ever really know for sure but you have to protect it. So we can die but we have the ability to live forever and magick really does exsist. You just have to feel it all in your heart. However the one thing I cant shake is how as humans we all complain about our sorry and sad lives until we are faced with that same life coming to an end. At every occasion that i have watched sumone draw their last breath-the thing you noticed the most is that- YOU NEVER SEE A MAN CRY UNTIL YOU SEE A MAN DIE. That statement is "oh so true". Man sheds a tear as life flashes in front of them just to know that they will never know it again. THATZ THE TRUE SADNESS OF BEING HUMAN. We have the greatest gift of all and we usually never quite realize it-we just want more from the creator-WE ARE THE CREATORZ SPOILED LITTLE BRATZ AND WE ARE VAIN-MAYBE THATZ WHY THE ANGELZ HATE US-until next time lets ponder on that.

And there entered our Demons and they laughed and they did play,lighting candles, danceing, and so on;they made darkness in a day-AN OLDE IRISH SAYING FROM GRANDMOTHER.

These words have echoed through my head these past 2 years of being in a rut. Could things have easily worked-yes of course they could have-in another life. Sometimez those little demonz are very hard to fight-Most of the time we dont fight them at all. Heck we fucking welcome them in our lives. I am by no means perfect but Id like to think I put goodstuff out there BUT sumtimez we just have to do the hard things that most peoplesay is wrong-and thatz when those little demonz come and help us out. Ive made a decision though I never want to live in the norm again and ill learn to live and work with my deamons - cause really maybe theyre here to help out like angel. Cause for every action there is an equal shadow 2 everything right. So angel/demon-vice/versa-one in the same.But BEWARE wutever they are they will drag you down. till next time

Wellive been separated for 1 week now and im off on my jorney. Or  my journey beginz. Who knowz except the great spirit what the world has in store for me- ill just wait. Maybe love stinkz but you can honestly just get caught up careing for sum1 so much until the point that you love em; and that in turn stinkz like all hell. Though however 1 day comes a point that you just have to let them go-because they r selfish and dumband full of cum.But I shall bounce back and karma will get the most sweet revenge in the world- hell probably die a sorry old man and all lonely2. And that will be just fine by me cause i shall carry on and get that dirt straight off my shoulder. Cause in the great words of jay z  I GOT 99 PROBLEMS AND THAT BITCH AINT ONE

I also have the injectable form of the disease now;and beleive me itz true when they say it bites u dead in the bone sumtimes. I mean i can go for ever- i mean a year r so wihout touching the stuff at allbut eventually therez that little demon that just wont shut the fuck up that u want to just swat dead.It just suckz so bad being addicted but then again it makes all the sad memories of life go away-like the first time that bastard touched you and stole your childhood soul. it was only good when karma caught up with his ass. but itz alright that little white pill numbs the bad feelingz for awhile and one day youll learn 2 deal and that signifigant other will just never understand u HEZ JUST A FUCKING FREAK well we love him

itz strange when the great spirit tells you that there is a gathering in the air; even stranger is realizing that it is true. you see friends from long and old that just remind you that you have just been straight upfooling yourself with life. itz like hey u r just to good for that person and you are just fooling yourself and are blinde by love, and it makes you feel so fucking stupid because on the real you really love em. Itz just so much sgit lying in the way. the great spirit made a fool of you. or maybe your heart is just to soft and the great spirit is trying to teach u a lesson. They good in bed though; but you got 2 remember there r a thousand otherz that r. but theere is still sumthing that holdz u there.itz our weaknessses as humans called love that keeps us there. I wrote a poem it start off " i left a note on your door 2day it readz im stillhere stuck in the trenches; and u out there parting-u animal   '' i guess thatz just love  but all i know this is when my worshippers com in handy. UNTIL NEXT TIME MY PEEPZ

last night i lay there in space; back in this black hole of a small town. I just laid back in bed and it was like the stars just gathered together and spiraled down in a wirlwind spiral. It was so awesome and i could almost remember the good times of the past and a old comfort crept back upon me and i slept the deepest sleep that i have ever slept in my wholelife and i had the dreams of old that people like me alwayz wish for.it was allmy people that past away over the years, They were all there and we chilled together through the whole dream-all night. Being home is great but leaving to once again explore is that drug that we all itch for. DoI stay r should i go-stay tuned and u will see.

sumtimes life is just so quiet when will it wake up and play with the energetic night outside

I hate itwhen ppl smile in your face. Like you wouldnt just rather them be themselvez in front of you. Cause sumtimeitzlike they all want you 2 go-thatz ok man i dont owe them any thing