Some Things They Just Never Change

It's going on 3 months or so that i've been back in this one horse town that I call my home town.  All that old charm that drew me back too is beginning to where off;and i just want to kick myself for coming back. There is always that person from the past that gets you down too-because they know. They know that one secret-the secret as to why you piced up and hauled ass in the first place. At first, like a made for T.V. movie,the two of you are kool-but then things change and they do the same ole thing that they use to do that pissed you off all those years before.  Some cases it could be a best friend, in some cases it can be an old ex, then in some cases itz your mother.  Your mother that down rates you at every chance she gets-your mother who belittles you because she looks at you and gets jealous-because you have what she let go of and you have more of it. Your mother that once a long time ago let sumone hurt you and she goes and does it again-WHY-I'm guessing it makes her feel superior in some way.However there is something that is still holding you here. Yea you and your friends blame it on the legend of the town being under a spell but in reality you know that you r back home-HOME AGAIN. Wasteing away the moments that make up a dog day and you can dig around on a peice of ground in your hometown and maybe someone can show you the way. Pink floyd hit it right on the nose with those lyrics. So I go outside and sit on the step and look at the stars cause sometimes im absolutely positive that this town is stuck in time vortex in space. Though the stars remind me that ill always have my heavenly father the great spirit in the sky; and the fresh air reminds me that im alive and at least i have my health and life and with that i sit back and escape-if only in my mind. I think of all my mistakes in life and if only I could turn back the hands of time-but i cant. So i make myself a promise to make my future way way better and to just LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND 4EVER. As i fall asleep under the twinkling stars and great big sky-I cant help but be hurt and i cry-but only to myself.Then I pick my head up and think good thouhts and they turn into great dreams-BIG dreams. I then fell into a deep sleep and hoped for a better tomorrow.JUST WAIT...IT WILL COME!!!